live. laugh. love. complain. smile. hate.life.

3rd June 2012

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mixed emotions.

what do you do when you see your family hurt? what do you do when you know one is more wrong than the other? what do you do when you realize that true love doesn’t exsist in one of the few relationships that you thought were “real”? it freaking sucks. it’s sucks to me to realize that nothing can last forever. it also sucks me that trust is so hard to come by. it seems like no matter how long you are dating someone that it doesn’t matter. there is always going to be that one person that is going to try to mess things up. there is always going to be someone who is the homewrecker in the relationship. it’s crazy to me how some people really don’t care about others in relationships and how some can simply doesn’t care that they are just ruining more than just a relationship with that person-they are ruining the relationships you have made with the rest of their family. at the end of the day, my family means more to me than anything in this world. i will do anything for to make my parents, brother, first cousins and nephew happy. they are who have my back at the end of the day being right or wrong. they will even correct me when i am wrong and that’s how i know they are really down for me. they won’t front me out and come to me straight. it’s sad to me to see a good thing go to waste over some some things- especially because some other spectators don’t have any respect for your relationship.

moral;i don’t believe in true love and it will take forever. on top of that, it’s about loyalty. you claim you are loyal to the guy you’ve been dating for over half of a century, then be loyal to him. be there through his thick and thin. be there when they need you the most. be that extra support system to get them futher in life-not that headache that holds them back. remember where you started your foundation and how you grew. remember all the steps you needed to take from when you were nothing to something. be grateful you were able to realize all the flaws in life to get you to go futher in life and to not be stuck on what is in the moment. also, don’t forget to get off that high horse you live on. at the end of the day, we all come from the same place. you are not better than i am. we are all at the same place trying to get up the same barrel of the social classes. come back to reality and realize it all and humble yourself.

that is all for my intoxicated rant.

21st May 2012

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i feel

like i’ve been neglecting my tumblr lately due to the fact instagram has taken over my life. on top of that, i’m getting bored of reblogging. when i go on here, it’s to write something about how i’ve been feeling lately. i guess i’ll keep it that way.

1) i need motivation. i feel so unmotivated right now-it’s not even funny. maybe i need a different kind of change or a challenge to get myself going.

2) there are 2 things that have been annoying me lately.
    -why is knowing right from wrong such a blur? shouldn’t that be common sense? i mean i just don’t understand why some people simply can not distinguish between the two.
    - the saying “if you still talk about it, you still care.” this freaking saying is so annoying to me considering I don’t find it to be true at all. i talk about the good and the bad all the time, but that doesn’t mean i still care. it’s like saying i love you but i’m not in love with you. they are two different things! i’m going to talk about it because i am past it. i’ve learned from it and i’ve moved on. if i can’t talk about it, then that’s when you know i still care.

other than those annoying this… my life is pretty good.

ohh.. and 1 month and i’m outt of here!

11th May 2012

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Exciting news

LA at the end of June is a go! My friend’s cousin is letting us stay at her place to save money until we find a place we are comfortable with considering she knows what it was like being a broke college student. I’ll actually be like 30 min from la, but still in SoCal. I’m so excited. I want this month to go by so I can go and get life situated.

Oh top of that, my mother is going to the Philippines on Saturday for a month and is meeting my dad there. I’m excited they’re going, but I wish I was going also. Nothing feels better than going to the place where your parents grew up. Always a party going down and it let’s us be thankful for what we have in life.

Good way to end up day!